This is what I heard in the shower today. At first, I was confused. I didn't know what to make of it. Then, I conceded and agreed. I have been hiding. Yes, I've gone to work, church, social gatherings, the usual things that wives, mothers, and teachers do, but I realize I haven't truly been present. I've been hidden.
If you know me, you know that the past three years have been pretty turbulent. I've hidden masterfully well through it all. Even now, some of you are going, "Wow! I couldn't tell." It's not because I'm an expert hider. I had help! I knew who to talk to when I was at my weakest. This confidant always knows how to keep me calm and hid me when I didn't want to be found.
Pslam 27:5-6 NLT For He will conceal me in His temple when troubles come; he will hide me in his sanctuary. He will place me out of reach on a high rock. Then I will hold my head high above my enemies who surround me.
Three big moves in three years, my husband living in a different state for two and a half, two growing kids, three different jobs and many other life changes. In three years my life was turned inside out. I can't possible share all of the ups and certainly not all of the downs, but what I can tell you is... I'm okay. Yes. I'm doing just fine. I am actually doing better than I was three years ago! It's funny how things can seem so bad when you are going through them, but it all worked out for the best. I was hidden in plain sight.
Did you know that you could see someone everyday, talk to them, laugh with them, live with them and never truly experience that person's fullest compacity. I recently published a book called, Invisible, which focuses on a teen who is, in fact, hiding. The only difference is Jozi (the main character) hasn't found a safe place to hide. As I was thinking about Jozi her, I realized I too have been hiding. But, I was in the safest place anyone could hide. There, I was protected and well taken care of.
One example of my hiding: this is my first blog post since December 2019. Wow! Just typing it out is pause worthy!
Why haven't I posted?
I could name at least twenty reasons, literally, but the most poignant reason is... I didn't know what to say. I didn't have a profound revelation, note worthy experience, or even a smidge of useful advice. I was simply trying to survive the changes, maneuver between seasons, and maintain my peace. Most of all, I was listening to my life (which is a great book by Valorie Burton). When you are listening so keenly you don't really have time for much else.
Well, I hope I haven't confused you. Hiding isn't bad. Sometimes we need that safe place to reside until we have refueled our empty tanks. Sometimes we need a break. Sometimes we all need to hang a "closed" sign outside our door or send an automated "out of the office" email. Difficult times come to those who are in need of pruning. I must say I am so grateful, because without which, growth can never take place.
Look at it like this, being hidden in plain sight is your super power. When it's time to come out of hiding all will be well. You will come out stronger, wiser, and well rested. :-)
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